Skeleton(s) in a case. (mine).

They say that you will not buy happiness for money!
But for them it is possible to buy comfortable life, good food, beautiful clothes, to pay study to the child and it is possible to list infinitely!

It is my story about how I was left without existence
There was it for various reasons: the father worked in Moscow, he was beaten by competitors so they did it operation, there was a brain hematoma. Everything, Thank God, was without consequences, now he in senses and memories, runs, as before.

We then already lived in the Western Ukraine. Everything was more or less stable. I had small, but the, business. I provided with these earnings study of the son at the university in Kiev.

After incident with the father everything at once collapsed
I sewed to order: there were stable, rich clients. And all simply evaporated. I did not save money - such thought did not come to mind at all And time was continuous inflation.
So when at the beginning of December mother went to Moscow because the father put in a hospital with suspicion of a stroke - he is such conspirator - told nothing to nobody - we stayed at home on zero. Money was on most, the most necessary. With food the nightmare - tea with the bread roasted on vegetable oil, during the lunchtime soup began in the morning: water, potato, cabbage, a drop of vegetable oil, for dinner all too most only without water: to boil potato, to make salad of cabbage.
I since those times had fear to die from hunger Already easier, in any case do not hammer the refrigerator with products.

And constant thoughts in the head: what to do?!
From a huge number of acquaintances for some reason remained nobody That for me is strange, nobody had an infectious disease us.
I did not become reserved, called all to whom could and told that I happened.
As then read, it turned out that it is the correct way to remove, reduce value of a situation. Did you when you tell someone about the spent vacation, for example, with all details, with emotions, apparently, that everything is simply unusual notice? Then also to 2 - 3 more people, and already you tell the following about same briefly and already any emotions, and all does not seem such cool any more. It is my first council.

I did not hesitate to ask about the help. Any. Moral, in the form of sympathy and material, though in the form of a potato bag Council of the second: do not neglect the help! So you will help two, minimum, to people at once: to itself and the assistant - to make a good deed - to improve a karma.

Councils very much were useful to me! Took good note of everything. I was very lucky that I have a close girlfriend, the authorized representative whom I can tell everything, as well as she to me. She could not always be with me at home, but we could speak for hours by phone.
Together estimated as as. My friend and all her family Protestants in several generations so her outlook on life differs from most of inhabitants.

Parents arrived at the end of December. The father was weakened, but live! When did him operation we with the sister knew nothing, mother in such a way preserved us. That day I tried to sew. Sat and looked at the watch, I do not know why. There were no forces to get up, in general to move. There was an unusual weight! And in 11 h it became easier, I could rise, be engaged in a lunch. Then mother called and told that performed on the father operation and everything is good. And on time left that I sat just when he was on the operating table.

The most difficult were evenings. If in the afternoon I did the cleaning, went behind products, then in the evening all weight of the world, appear, leaned on my shoulders. I could not watch movies, read, sew, communicate though with whom. Purely intuitively I decided to knit. Took new yarn (stocks from the North) a difficult pattern, such that it was necessary to think over it and in the evenings knitted. Switched on light everything, it ustaraivatsya comfortably that it was warm. And here when I so knitted, thoughts were disconnected from problems - because were busy with a pattern - the mind calmed down, ceased to rush about. It such meditation turned out. There is more: on fingertips to be many nervous terminations and probably for this reason knitting very much helped me.
The third council: find to yourself occupation for evening, just knitting can. By the way, I am not able to knit and now I do not knit.

Everything that could be sold, we sold: machine, gold, household appliances.
Also decided that I should go abroad. Other question: where and for what?.
One acquaintance wrote me phone of people who did documents to Ireland. Money for it was not taken. But when already they told me that I can pack things - food, it turned out that somewhere in a bureaucratic jungle (as they told) my papers were lost. Italy disappeared too.

At last one more my friend gave phone of the person which does documents for work to the Czech Republic, all legally. And I to it - to the Czech Republic do not want! And it - is at you the choice? Call give! And I called.
And there was a love, to everything But already And documents he to me made it of another story, I did not care for anything and even on an interview in embassy was not By the way, 8 years sustained our relations.

The fourth council: Do not refuse anything from any offers. Maybe you will meet that you do not expect at all.

Still I very attentively listened to the inner voice. All have it, only people behind the cares do not pay attention to it. It is possible to eat the equipment for the best contact, I do not know, used nothing of that kind.
As to recognize him: once, a low voice, usually yours sounds. The second time does not repeat and does not insist - you have a freedom of choice. It is always right so it is better to obey! I always felt that I am not lonely even if I am one.

The fifth council: pay attention to hints, they everywhere. Try to see them and to hear. Ask for the help God. As you would address the native person, just by the own words. I so do - always supports and helps. At first it was similar, as in the movie: You eat, pray, love. And at me with tears

Believe that if God closes doors, then he surely opens a window!

I hope, I though brought hope and a ray of light for the help someone's to fragile soul a little!